★★☆☆huea☆☆★★

fish in big cold pond

2010-01-17T22:48:00.002+08:00

trade off, is when you choose something, something else will be forgone or neglected.

just like economics theory, the opportunity cost.

but what if you are only able to chose the second best chioce for yourself? because you are not fit enough for the first best choice.

fit. why am i not fit enough for it?

and i have to admit i am desparate to get it. i am already willing to sacrify so many things for it. but the fact is i have to get back to ground?

perhaps, i will be better steping on real solid groud. back to my root.

moon outside is always brighter, bigger? i see it now, maybe the moon light is too bright to blind me.

i am a small fish n a big pond. i want to choose to be a smalll fish in a big pond in fact. to see the big pond and see on the different fishes around, and then i would know, the pond's water is too cold for me.

jump jump.

fish please jump, and also swim against the stream. you will be stronger and better.
SWIM AGAINST THE STREAM.

i am the fish, adapt with it. remember your mother.

沉默的听

2009-12-11T20:00:00.003+08:00

如果你是爱一边听着歌，一边高声跟随着唱歌的人，

有没有那么一首歌，

一播放的时候，

你只会沉默的听，

脑海里浮现的，

就是他的画面，

那时的他对着你唱那首歌的画面。

或许他没有唱给你听，

但是他叫你听这首歌，

因为那是他那时对你的心声。

今天，又沉默了一首个的时间。

宅女感慨的一晚

2009-11-14T01:11:00.002+08:00

我很宅。。。
不回家留在学校的我，
生活就是24小时漂在5楼。
电脑因为之前存量不足而删掉所有的戏，是所有！！
所以我的宅生活更单调，黑白！

宅到什么程度吗？连食堂都不去。
三餐呢？
冰箱可以吃的都吃。麦片加炼奶似乎已经是常饭了。
炼奶也快完了 -,-

有时真的很想跟姐出去，
但是她总是扫兴。
好几次了。

每天起来就是开电脑上facebook，
没有assignment就这样，有assignment也是这样，提不起劲来。
没有电影/综艺节目/卡通/所有会动加又声音的视觉和听觉享受的人生。。。
搞到我呢，现在听歌很小声，稍微大声我嫌吵了！
严重吧？

干吗不开pps或youtube?
pps在学校可以load出来广告我就要买烧猪还神了。
youtube每次load综艺节目的开始，就是一堆动画和前面的介绍歌，之后就要等到蜘蛛造网才有。
于是我点击了‘close'
close all tabs? yes! all fucking unloaded tabs!

宅就像厌食症。
本来不吃变瘦，个个赞你瘦了，心里沾沾自喜。
后来就变成看到食物就想吐。

宅呢，开始很享受这样的清静。不必花钱。
后来偶尔想出去但是人物时间地点不妥，就罢了。
最后就想我现在这样。

朋友好像很少。
爱人晚上才得空。
facebook越来越无聊。

宅久了对一切没劲。
不写了。

无题

2009-10-07T01:30:00.003+08:00

夜深人静，越来越不喜欢facebook。玩腻了，我想很多人早就玩腻了，因为我想关心的人很少update,反而一堆无聊人的照片每天在new feds出现。 =.=

还有2星期我就要去香港，兴奋呢。不过，烦躁的心情一点也没有比兴奋少。

烦躁synoptic,
烦躁contemporary discussion,
烦躁凌晨没人载我去机场。

还好 Alaz Goh 说了让我放心的话。'Enjoy your stay in HK, don't worry'. 我也一定要加油不能让他失望。Thank you.

感激 Miss Gowrie 指导我对未来的方向。她就像一位母亲对我说话，告诉我自己在学业和未来事业上的方向。 You are my role model now. Thank you.

原来在你要改变一个人时，或者你想在他面前呈现出怎样的自己当儿，你自己真的会改变。感激内心的天使征服了恶魔。

今年的生日。除了另一半给我的礼物及快乐。其实我是寂寞的。
感谢佩汶的礼物，她简直像位姐姐这样，她就是给我姐姐的感觉，是我这辈子工作时期遇到的其中一位好人。
感谢我的姐姐陪我，蛋糕，donuts..我知道你要陪我度过生日。
还有父母的爱，谢谢。
问问自己，到底我还能混在哪群朋友里？还是这个年纪已经没有必要有一斑朋友，是很要好的那种。不是自己人缘差，自己身边还是很多爱我的朋友，讨厌我的也存在。
所以， 928可能是我熟悉的日子，还有facebook一堆祝福的日子。

成长让我得到的，足以补偿我失去的吗？
曾经无所不谈的朋友，他们都不在身边。身边的朋友，不再无所不谈。

也许好友要另一半来代替了，听见吗，我的你！

又是时候做 Assignment。待续。

reluctant to change

2009-08-15T15:00:00.004+08:00

how many times.
when we knew the consequences,
we knew what we will get when we walk down the road and reach that end,
and there's light of hope that we could change it now.
but we didnt.
and we regret later.

saltiness

2009-08-12T22:12:00.004+08:00

Sorrows in my heart that are left unspoken,
form the water that blurred my vision.

What to say?
What to think?
What to do?
To make me feel there's hope still?

Swallow the saltiness in my throat....
And dry the salt in my eyes.

Smile again and say I'm alive.

★Typography

2009-08-06T01:34:00.006+08:00

Lets talk about art tonight.

Recalling it was few years back when my cousin Daniel was still a secondary boy, I went to Singapore and he has this art homework to do which are drawings or images using lines and dots. I help him with that homework and it looks like this.

The bottom one was drawings whereas the above is an example given by his teacher.

I was satisfied with that piece of work.

And now, Daniel has starts his college life in La Salle, a college with outstanding reputation in arts. Every time I visit him, I am interested to look at his projects and works, how I wish I am doing the same course.

Daniel once answered me when I ask him why he choose to study in art school while he once hates to do his arts homework? He said I somehow inspired him. And look at me, miserably doing Accounting and not even Economics. How sad right?

...Oh ya, I just spent 20 minutes to browse La Salle's website, imagining one day I am studying there and do my arts projects...

And recently, I'm in love with typography. Check these out,

Cool right? Can be graphics form words or words forming graphics. Awesome in conveying message. I think they are useful for advertising to bring out some message and create awareness because they are just so eye-catching. <3 it so much!

★The sky.

2009-07-29T01:22:00.014+08:00

Since I study in Nilai University College, I realized I like to see the sky. And Nilai really has very beautiful scenary.

Probably due to staying at the 5th floor in campus. I often look out from my balcony and see the sky.

Today I realized that the sky is a gigantic drawing block created by God. Everyday, every hour, every second, God is drawing on the drawing block to portray to His fellows.

God want to show the drawings to the kids that are playing on the playground,
To the heavily ill man laying on the hospital bed and looking out through the window,
To the couples that are laying on the green field, staring at the sky. Quietly,
To the old lady that have just lost her husband and crying at the graveyard,
To the construction labours who are sweating working under the sun...

God tried to show them the sky, using clouds as media and wind as the drawing pencil. Add colours using the sunlight of different hour. Asking the birds to fly by. To fly by. To capture your sight. But you forget to look up. You just forget...

You have missed the moment, when you try to capture back the piece of work, you look up to the blue sky, but you have missed it. You can't seems to find the last flash of view anymore. You just missed it.

★Sharing Keren Ann

2009-07-29T00:46:00.009+08:00

Get hypnotised with the voice of this singer. She is so good.
I like her style of singing so much.
Effortless, natural style, relaxed.

She sings French too. Still it is very nice. Stress-less-ly.
I'm loving it. Especially when your surroundings are so quiet, her voice is like a gentle wind, whispering in your ears.

I like the dying elements in her song. Sad and slow but still you can find enjoyment in it. 钊says he thinks some song carries an element of hope especially the song 'Polly'. I am glad he likes Keren Ann too. <3

Don't know much about her background. This is me. I love her just because of her voice and songs.

★Vintage Posters

2009-07-27T16:46:00.016+08:00

Girls say yes to boys who say no. Nice slogan. Love the photography effect! and the Violin hangin there!

I think this is the advertisement for wine? Anyways I love the drawings, the colous!

Bolllywood? See the colous. Love it!

Eat more cottage cheese. haha. Love the black and white effect and the pictures of animals, very primary-school-text-book feel.

Audrey Hepburn!!! Legendary model!!! A definite icon!

Some Korean Movie? I love the drawings, how do they draw faces that resemble so much?

remember the black and white-silent comedian?

I guess people were very excited at that time! before the accident happens.

Still the same taste as the Coke I can get from the drink machine? OMG was selling at 5cent at that time!

I think it's some traditional ointment poster. Very Shanghai.

These series of posters are so so vintage. Love them! It brings back to the era and these posters reflect the culture background. Most of the works are hand-drawn, how impressive? Technologies are good, but the hand-drawn effect is so unique! The font, the colours, the art! BRAVO!

★高跟鞋和脚趾论

2009-07-27T15:09:00.004+08:00

刚刚被我的宝贝的电话吵醒，但是心里是甜蜜的。我也该起床了啦懒猪！充好电就要gogogo！

每次都想着，我的每一通与男友的电话都是长途电话呢！明明讲电话的内容普普通通，就是男女朋友会问的一般问题，但是，就算我们在做着普通的日常例事，每一通电话就如它的距离一样牵带着不平凡的意义。哪怕用短短的几秒说声：我爱你，都是字字意义重大！钊，我爱你！（甜蜜中！）

（醒！）今天要写我的Observation，关于女生穿高跟鞋！
女生啊女生，虽然本小姐不太爱没事穿穿高跟鞋，但是我还是爱它的。对高跟鞋有一定的眷恋是女生的特权！一双再好看的高跟鞋，绝对绝对会被穿的人给毁容！女生要多多注意了！例子如下：

严重犯错第一宗case: 脚趾！！
脚趾是一个很少被照顾的地方。脚趾甲太长，黑黑脏脏的都OUT！！尽管女生已经为脚趾涂上美丽的趾甲油，穿高跟鞋的时候要注意的是你脚趾啊！我常常注意这一点：脚趾开开！！
女生要穿露脚趾头的高跟鞋，一定要不断提醒自己要把脚趾夹紧！不要脚趾开开的好像试图用脚趾把地站稳，穿高跟鞋本来就是违反physics（物理学）对平衡点的道理。跟细细的还要加上3/4寸的，怎样站得稳就要看个人了，根本不能尝试把脚趾开的宽宽的站稳，那么不如就穿平地鞋！最好还是好像涎水的蛙鞋那么宽，够稳了吧！

严重犯错第二宗case：趾甲油！！
还是露脚指头的高根比较容易惹毛我。注意趾甲油颜色！好吧，就先研究没有涂趾甲油的脚趾！严重避忌趾甲长没有修，死皮厚得蜜蜂叮不进去！没有洗干净黑黑脏脏的，污垢厚得蚂蚁爬在脚趾会被沙海一样吞下去！平时洗澡麻烦把脚趾洗干净，还要隔一段时间磨沙，穿起高根鞋才不会把人家的眼睛弄瞎！就算不涂趾甲油，干净健康的脚趾算过关！至于有涂趾甲油的女生，在脚趾甲还是不能长！除非你是巫婆化身。选趾甲油还是一个显示你个人品味的知识呢！我看过有些女生真是懒得无可救药！脚趾甲的趾甲油颜色都落得七七八八，拇指有3/4的趾甲油，其他脚趾也是零零落落，还敢穿上露脚趾的高根！麻烦你假装sporty打扮，穿上球鞋好了！趾甲油呢，就拜托不要买那些pasar malam的3瓶10元的趾甲油，如果要买也拜托选看起来没有那么cheap的颜色！受不了看到有人会涂上亮+浅的橙色！亮+浅的粉红色！拜托那种颜色，还不如买nippon漆涂上算了！

穿高根鞋应该是优雅的，性感的。但是我个人觉得那2个case真是看到女生不穿鞋会舒服一些。不要勉强穿太高的高跟鞋！不要把小腿肌肉挤出来！不要走路好像走在空中悬钢丝！

谢谢各位高跟鞋美眉的忍耐，不要扁我！

★EROS is not ROSE

2009-07-25T00:08:00.010+08:00

EROS was the goddess of lust, beauty, love and (ahem!) intercourse.(Wikipedia)

And so ROSE(s) had became a popular gift among couples just because R.O.S.E. = E.R.O.S.
And yes, we are played by this stupid scrabble game.

I never understand why a bouquet of flowers can be a gift. Of course I understand that out of someones sincerity, everything can be a gift, a pencil, a mug, a PHOTO FRAME! (oh my,ever-popular-gift when someone don't know what to buy) But when Valentine's day are near, check out the price of a bouquet of roses (okay, check the price of A rose selling at the florist's). Now the price for this stupid-scrabbled-words-flower is not a joke.

I never like nor I agree a bouquet of flower as a gift from my boyfriend. But I received a bouquet of flower as my 21st birthday gift from one of my acquaintance. (and I later knew that he thought it was another girl's birthday) How meaningless it is, right?(doubled meaningless!!)

While some cam whore will have already taking a zillion pictures with the bouquet, I left the flower laying on my bed for a few hours, then hang it over to let it dry and viola! Few months later after it collects enough of dust, it lay nicely in the dustbin, still wrapping in the plastic paper decor.

People! Let me know if your bouquet of flowers didn't ends up that way. Oh tell me you have pluck every petals and swallowed it! Or make rose tea out of your gift. For those who are still hanging the dried flowers in your room, do check it later in case you can detect the small bugs that are habitat-ing and laying eggs. eeeeuu!

So, guys! Why are you wasting your money? And girls! Come on! Don't quarrel with your boyfriend if he doesn't gives you a bouquet of flower on Valentine's day, ask for something more worthwhile!

My sister's boyfriend said I can trans-sex to become a man when we were talking about this the other day on our journey back to hometown. Oh he was so wrong because he meant that he needs more female to have this thinking. I hope girls reading this can think rationally too. don't let the florist to earn the money over something that is so meaningless that can't represent any elements of LOVE.

★久违了

2009-07-24T00:36:00.001+08:00

今晚终于鼓起勇气开一个属于自己的blog。

之前开了不下于两个吧，次次又没有update，又把密码忘记了，希望这个可以持久一些。
每次在想要写个中文的还是来个英文的呢？这个真的很烦，英文的好像比较多人可以看得懂。
还是写English了。

Decided to start a new blog because I want people to read my blog. As simple as that huh! I think many bloggers are really awesome, how they manage to let the readers to keep reading their blog? Hope I can be one of them, forget about the fact that they are making the goddamn $$$ out of blogging! If I manage to let people retrieve my blog often, I will be more than happy.

My friend in Scotland - Wei Li said she doesn't want to share her stories with strangers. At that point of time I kind of agree with her. I really do. So I decided to write about things that I want people to know, pictures that others can see. So it's not going to be very personal one, it's gonna be more to how I think about what happened around me, my thoughts that I want to share.

And viola! (pronouns as walla!) huea928 officially established!